There are disadvantages to being me. Mentally inferior to almost everybody, physically weak, emotionally unstable. Bleeding for a week 12 times a year. I guess those are pretty normal female things. It's just that I don't think of myself as a normal female. So it's quite surprising to find that while I have all the advantages of being one of the guys, I've still got all the woman shit going on too. But really, the advantages of being female are pretty great too. Being apparently attractive to so many men is good. I also quite like having breasts. Having excuses for everything is excellent - "Sorry, I am just a female!" or "What do you expect from a woman?" - love it. The ability to sing soprano - I'd like to see any man I know try that!

I walked home ankle deep in water this afternoon. Glenferrie Rd was flooded, as was my street, and, well, pretty much the whole area. I got home after a 3 minute walk with my clothes as drenched as if I'd just been in a bath, including water inside my boots! It was bucketing down, my hair was flattened onto my head within 30 seconds of leaving the cover of Glenferrie station. It was great fun! Lots of people were huddled under shelter, but I figured I had to get home and I was going to get drenched eventually anyway... didn't matter how much I put it off or how quick I walked. So I just strolled home through the downpour. My clothes are still hanging in the shower, dripping!

Ted's going away party and Brad's going away dinner tonight. Was a good, but busy, night. Mostly.

How to tell my friends don't listen to me

The following questions are real questions asked me by a friend I've known online for a couple of years and who I speak to quite often.

"How is your boyfriend?"
"I'm in Wellington, NZ. Do you want to meet up while I'm here?"
"Are you working now?"

My parents are pretty awesome. I know I can trust them, and I know that they trust me. They're supportive and caring without being smothering and overwhelming. They know me so well, they can always pick my mood and do exactly the right thing at the right time. I can talk to them about anything. I can ask their opinions on anything. I know they'll always do what they believe is best for me - and what they believe is generally spot on. When I have children, I want to be just like my mother was to me. Of course I disagreed with her, resented her, sometimes even thought I hated her, when I was growing up. But now I better understand her actions, and I know that through all that time I took her for granted or wasn't nice to her, she still loved me.

Thanks Mum!

I get lonely sometimes. I guess that's normal. Everytime it happens, I just remind myself what it's like to be tied down. That soon fixes that problem!

I am so utterly dead beat. Work has been so tiring this week, so incredibly busy. No time to breathe. My only release is a muttered curse or insult in the few seconds between calls.
*hang up* "Why are you so stupid???" *answer next call*

I went over to Liny and Lina's place last night. That was a lot of fun, I like those two. Lina's new boyfriend, Andrew, was there too. He seems a nice sort, Lina seems happy with him which is good. They've got me to agree to go to some rave thing with them next month. Sounds like it should be a lot of fun.

I think Tammy's 21st is next week. I keep forgetting about that. I need to check the invitation she sent me to find out exactly when and where. I am rather looking forward to it. Last time I spoke to her she said something like, "We could have a lot of fun", and given our history that could mean a lot of things!

I feel kind of stagnant lately. I mean, I get up and go to work and come home and hang about at Cossack's place... every now and then I see some friends in between all that... I eat, sleep, get drunk... I'm not going anywhere, or getting anything done. I'm making money and paying the bills, surviving, but that's all. I don't even know what else I think I should be doing - I'm trying to write more, but it's not going very well so far. Ho hum...

Well it's a new year and it's going good so far. On new years eve a few of us gathered at Cossack's and drank: Chris, Nads, David from next door. We drank and watched Blackadder - a good new years eve, I think!
Today, new years day, I went into the city and met up with Andrew and Chantel. Andrew had to leave, but Chantel and I went and saw Peter Pan. It was a very sweet movie, we both enjoyed it.