I was just watching the X-Files, and a kid was killed. It got me thinking about motherhood, and having a child to look after. I've always felt that I'd make a pretty poor mother, I'm not mature or responsible enough, I'm not clean and tidy, I can't cook. Now I know another reason: fear. I would be too terrified to let my child out of my sight in case something happened. And if something did happen, I would feel such unbearable guilt... Sometimes I get broody and long for a child, but god help me if I ever have one...