Sometimes I wonder if I might be slightly bipolar. I'm not even sure if it's possible to be "slightly" bipolar - is it something that has degrees? I am frequently hyperactive and over-happy, like this morning, but other times I am apathetic to everything and lethargic and blank-minded, like yesterday. It doesn't seem triggered by anything in particular, it just happens. Maybe that's normal and I just never knew. I've never been very normal, I'm not sure what it entails.
Apparently there are six identifiers of manic depression:
High energy levels - I get this often, although Aidan would disagree as it tends to happen at work rather than in the evenings when I'm tired.
Positive mood - almost always.
Irritability - yeah, sometimes, but doesn't everybody get irritable?
Inappropriate behaviour - well, it's tempting, but I usually manage to stop myself. Just.
Heightened creativity - I've often thought that I write better when depressed.
Mystical experiences - ummm no. I'm drawing a blank on that one. Unless you count feeling completely disconnected from the world, that gets a bit surreal.
Yesterday I felt like nothing mattered and I barely had energy to move. This morning I keep wanting to burst out laughing for no reason! Weird.
Is this normal?